EINSTINE

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EINSTINE
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When I realized I screwed up my life, I had regretted everything, up to this point I've been doing what I hated most.........No matter how had I tried, I slipped into the same dark f*cked up hole I've gotten out of rarely........I did nothing to deserve it.......I just ended up as the son in the middle who's dad never cared for. My dad put me to work, on our farm and ranch, I had no allowance, and my two brothers played on the PS3 all day. It was very unfair......recently I've been trying my best to do well in school but I always ended up in the hospital, or some other messed up thing that had to keep me away from school.......I may be 15 but I have made that mistake of leaving school to join the workforce......I became a lumberjack as of August 27 with a high pay, but with a dangerous job.........the trees here weigh up to 1.5 tons sometimes, a wrong move means it will claim a life......%90 of the time.

But now my chance to get a good education and job is gone.....GONE.....because no college, or school in my province will accept high school dropouts.....so now I have the job that pays well.....but your gone for 6 months of the year, you get a 2 month break, and then another 3 till you take a Christmas vacation.....no more spring break, or summer break.....only the few months I have off......and recently I ended up with enough income to do anything i want......I need it because I get nothing from my dad's will.......my two brothers get the farm and property.....so I am my own man......But even though I can handle it, I'm only 15......that goes to show how careless my parents were (and are) for me.......I WAS DEAD TO THEM MY WHOLE LIFE.......all I can say is.....don't get yourself into a cycle where you cannot go back to school.....how can you keep a relationship being 6 months away from your family??? never go down my route, I took it because i have to, I no longer live with my parents.....I started life at age 15, 10 years before %99 of the people......dont go that route......never....


Into life, Without any help, Alone.......

"The material things of Earth distract you from the real things in heaven, when heaven is a second priority to what you have on Earth, your grant to get in is lost" Brennan Sapecnik

If nothing happens here on hatena from me in 4 months, than my job had claimed my life.....and if that happens than remember this as my last words....

"To everyone, to all my friends, I love you, I must leave"