Esli's Profile

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I like photos. I love a lot of things, and people. I fall in love way too easily, even if its just the friend type of love too. I obsess over things all the time and I get stressed out easily. I cry a lot and I get angry at least once a day. So I guess that makes me a typical teenager - and in some ways I am.

My music taste is varied, I like plaid shirts and nebulas are cool to look at. Long brown hair is amazing, and I want to live in California.

Hoodies, fluffy socks and cuddles are the best.

Lyrics are how I express myself, relying on others to explain how I feel is much more simple than trying to put everything into my own words. I swear often, and forget that I'm not supposed to in front of people who still think I'm about seven years old. I grew up far too fast, but I don’t mind because I still manage to act like a kid .

I like to retreat back into my own little world, a world where I don’t have to put anyone else first. A world where I know I’m safe from everyone else’s influence.

I will hide how I feel about you, if I don’t like you. It’s not that I’m purposely like that, I just think it is easier if I ignore you. I have the world’s shortest temper, and my mood-swings are very impressive. I obsess over things easily. It doesn’t take a lot to make me cry, and if you become a part of my life the chances are that youll make me cry at least once. I may seem like your typical 21st century teenager, but I can assure you that you shouldn’t just take what I appear to be like as what I really am like. I’m complex and irrational, I make stupid choices and I often change my mind because I’m so indecisive.

I want to live in California one day. I want to live that carefree life with plenty of money in the bank, and maids to do my cleaning, but who doesn’t want that kind of life? Who wouldn’t want the fancy clothes, the effortless glamour? I know that my chances of reaching that goal are slim, but then again maybe I’ll just find myself a very well off young man. I just wanna do what I love the most, but I know I’d never be good enough. I want two or three kids, and one of them simply has to be a girl, I’ve already picked out her name.

You will never completely know me. Like I said, I’m complex, and I hate opening up to the people I should probably be most open with. Recently though, I’ve been getting much better at trusting people, mainly because I’ve met some amazing people on here who I wish lived closer to me, because they’re some of the best people I’ve ever come across.

I don’t know what I want in life. I’m starting to regret all the things I did and all the things I didn’t do. Like trusting the wrong person. Rejecting the good guys. I just realized it too late. As usual. I don’t know what I want but I do know I don’t want this. It’s not about my love life or relationships, it’s just the general over...view of my stupid life that has been screwed up solely by me. People in my life are like wind; they come and go as they wish. Good guys are hard to find. If I ever find one again I’m going to grab a hold of him and never let go. I was taught to forgive that which is forgivable. But how do you tell the difference? I don’t know. But I have learned that you should always remember to live life with laughter and if you love someone, let them know. If you know you’re going to leave someone, don’t step in and out of their life as you please. Just do what you have to do and don’t ever come back. Let them heal. And no matter what, keep trying. Never stop trying.